On February 17, 2015, David Brooks of the New York Times wrote an op-ed piece called “The Moral Injury” discussing David J. Morris’s book “The Evil Hours”. Morris, a former Marine who later became a war correspondent, suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and Brooks praises the book on many levels.
I was particularly moved by a quote from the book that Brooks repeated in his review, so I will repeat it here for our readers. I feel this describes exactly my experience with dissociative fugue, which is not exactly PTSD but is a severe dissociative disorder nonetheless.
Here is the quote:
Trauma destroys the fabric of time.
In normal time
You move from one moment to the next
Sunrise to sunset
Birth to death.
You may move in circles
Find yourself being sucked backwards into an eddy
Or bouncing like a rubber ball
From now to then
To back again…
The basic laws of matter are suspended.
Ceiling fans can be helicopters.
Car exhaust can be mustard gas.