Now that I have described the structure of S.A.F.E. in several blog posts, including a description of the phases, there is a notable moment that I must relay to you, because it highlights the garish incompetency of the program in general. The article I posted earlier about S.A.F.E. describes how medicated we were, and it’s true. Maybe we had a nurse to actually pass the meds (although I can’t be certain), but we were a heavily medicated lot for being a drug rehab program.
In my case, I was on 500 mg of Seroquel, which was a hefty dose, as well as 1000 mg of Depakote, amongst other antidepressants, mood stabilizers, etc. Well, there was one point in time where they lost my meds for three or four days. If you are at all familiar with psych drugs, they should not be gone off cold turkey, particularly anticonvulsants like Depakote, because that can cause seizures.
Luckily that didn’t happen, but I got incredibly ill. For the entire three or
four days, until they found my medication, I was relegated to a thin mattress on the dusty floor, fed crackers, and given a bucket to vomit in. I was shaking, sweating, hot, cold, and nauseous. I was supposed to be a druggie, and I had never had withdrawals before!
It seems like this would be a good program to re-integrate someone into society, because of the phases, but let me tell you, it wasn’t. When I left the program for good, the only word I can use to describe what I felt was “anomie”, a sociological term used to describe a sense of normlessness. I didn’t know what to expect from society, nor did I know what should be expected of me.
Interested in medication poisoning in MSbP?
Read Monika’s post on it here.